New Tattoo: Gerard Manley Hopkins


On the first of this month, I ended up getting my fifth tattoo. It’s a quote from a Gerard Manley Hopkins poem (my first poetry tattoo!), called “As Kingfishers Catch Fire”. The poem itself is about vocation- about that place where our deepest desires meet the deep need of the world.

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For me, this is a huge reminder to have on myself. I placed it close to my heart because it is something that I need to be reminded of every day- that I am what I do, and what I say and what I feel- not what others have done to me, or what evil they have brought into my life, or what other people think or say about me. I am also what I do, meaning that I have a duty to be active in living out my vocation in the world. The road to hell is paved with good intentions, and no one will know the good in my heart, the passion in my heart, the God in my heart, if I do not make a conscious choice to do so, every day. And for that I came- not for the purpose of being successful, or being the most holy, or saving every person I meet or even being happy. I came to ‘do’ that which is ‘me’- to be the Self that God made to the best of my ability. He only made one me, and I’m not going to waste His gift by being someone else.

So in honor of all that, here is the poem in it’s entirety: (I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!)

As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flame;
As tumbled over rim in roundy wells
Stones ring; like each tucked string tells, each hung bell’s
Bow swung finds tongue to fling out broad its name;
Each mortal thing does one thing and the same:
Deals out that being indoors each one dwells;
Selves — goes itself; myself it speaks and spells,
Crying Whát I dó is me: for that I came.

 

I say móre: the just man justices;
Keeps grace: thát keeps all his goings graces;
Acts in God’s eye what in God’s eye he is —
Chríst — for Christ plays in ten thousand places,
Lovely in limbs, and lovely in eyes not his
To the Father through the features of men’s faces.

 

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New Tattoo Friday!


After a bit of debate surrounding whether or not I was going to get my behind-the-ear tattoo or my thigh tattoo first, I now have my second tattoo:

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She’s a tribute to my favorite villaness of all time, Harley Quinn (specifically Bruce Timm’s version):inspiration

Unlike with my first tattoo, which being on my foot and ankle is extremely visible, this one can barely even be seen when I’m wearing shorts properly (the bottom diamond slightly peeks out). Whereas my rosary tattoo is meant to be seen so that people can immediately identify me as Catholic (and so that I remember to behave accordingly), the meaning this tattoo has for me is much more of a personal strength and growth thing, and so is really only meant for me and those close for me to see on a day to day basis. I’m super happy with it, and so glad that I finally have it!

Oh By The Way…


I got a tattoo. This is my first one, which was designed by myself and literally stenciled onto my body. It is a blue rosary with lily-designs in the arms of the cross, a Chi Ro in the medallion and all fifty-beads (so I could technically use it to pray a rosary, in the event that I am in a situation where I do not have my others with me).

I have a very strong relationship with the rosary- I have three on me at all times (my wrist decade bracelet, my glow-in-the-dark rosary in my purse, and now the one permanently on my body). I pray three rosaries a week, and have been praying the rosary devoutly since sixth grade.

I like to think of it as being marked for God. Wherever I go now, people will first see me as a Catholic, rather than some random girl with no specific tie. I am first and foremost a member of the Holy Mother Church, and the fact that I cannot take off this rosary to hide that identity is a reminder that I should ALWAYS strive to be a model ambassador of the Church to the world- in loving, in understanding, in living up to the high standards set for us by Christ and his institutional community. I am proud of being a Catholic, I am proud of my Church, and my pride resides in my God. I know that many of my faith community have a negative view of tattoos, but it is my hope that they would understand the pure intention behind it. I’m willing to defend my choice to mark myself in the name of My Lord as long as it takes.

Plus, isn’t it beautiful?

Sorry For The Lack of Posting


But I’ve been at work the whole time.

My boss actually found out that I don’t go back to school until the 15th and rescheduled me everyday but Monday on the week I was going to have off.

Oh well.

At least now I’ll for sure be able to afford a car come summer!

And I got my mother to agree to let me get my tattoo over Easter break, as long as I prove to her that I do my research about my artist. I wanted to be able to get the pain part of the tattoo over with during this break, but at least she’s now promised a set date. I won’t let her back out of it this time!

I miss my boyfriend a lot too. He wants to come back to Colorado early just so he can be with me for a bit before we start classes again but I’ll be at work, yet again. I mean I don’ think that my mother, who adores him, would be adverse to having him around the house even when I’m not there but that’s got to be boring for the kid. Not to mention my little brother would have to give him room up yet again. Unless I could convince my mother to let him sleep in the basement with fifty thousand blankets since it’s cold down there. I really want him to come. I miss him so much.

Only two more weeks before break is over!

And I’m already so tired because of work that I almost don’t want to go out and party on New Year’s Eve.

I feel like I’m thirty years old. Even my joints have started creaking. Sometimes I wonder where my life is going.